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Coming Alive

July 10, 2007

Hey everyone,

I’m beginning to feel alive again. I have felt pretty dormant for a while, ever since the last dream of mine got smashed into a bunch of pieces by a few people who I thought were on the same side as I was, but that is history.

Now, I am beginning the preparation phase of a brand new ministry—a ministry I have felt called to in one way or another for a while now—and it isn’t really as much of a “new” ministry, as a refocusing of the ministry dream that bombed a few years ago. Now, after a few years of growth, I have learned what the core of the ministry needs to be, and what the main tools are to accomplish the goal.

It is kinda crazy, cause God just up and showed me all these things within the past six months, after I re-committed to try things His way, as entirely as I know how.

I am beginning to feel alive again, because I see this ministry taking shape, at least conceptually, and it is super exciting. If you want to learn more about it, check out my temporary site for it. The ministry is called “Rebuild Your Church” and it is currently located at rebuildyourchurch.wordpress.com.

The site is pretty basic right now, but I will be expanding it in the near future, as I get more of the specifics ironed out and designed.

If you have any questions, comments, suggestions, or concerns let me know, cause I am interested.

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Random Thought For Discussion

July 4, 2007

I had the following idea/thought come to my mind:

In order to make empty or false ideas seem plausible, the devil mixes the idea with truth. Instead of falling into the trap of accepting the idea as is, or the other trap of throwing the idea, and anything that even resembles the idea (including the potential truth) out, we should instead be discerning and extract and keep the truth, while leaving out the error.

What do you think? Is this inspired, erroneous, or does it need to be refined to a purer level of truth?

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“Server” no more?

June 28, 2007

Hey Everyone,

I haven’t had much motivation to blog in the past little while (hence the lack of posts), but I will write a quick note that I re-took the personality profile and my second place gift of server dropped to fourth place, and in its place came the category of “Exhorter” or encourager. So that makes my top three gifts Administrator-Exhorter-Giver.

The exhorter is a person who encourages others and is an optimist. He/she is a dreamer usually with big goals, and can generally step back and look at the larger picture. They are also the ones who insist on making scripture practical and applicable to today.

I have also been looking into the spiritual gift materials that this is based from and would love to share it with anyone who is interested. It is really pretty cool in my mind, because it makes sense, whereas all the previous spiritual gift definitions and classifications always seemed a little confusing to me.

I don’t know any other Administrator-Exhorters, but The Experience (the church i attend) has a couple Exhorter-Administrators (one of whom is the pastor).

Anyways, I thought I would share with all of you before I take off from my shift at work.

Have a great rest of your week.

~Crazycoolcam

Note: Just because server isn’t as high on my list doesn’t excuse me from helping out in a server role.  In fact I am not really sure if it should be fourth.  I am thinking I may be an odd mix of the four gifts Administrator, Exhorter, Server, and Giver since they all are pretty high.  (Really the only gift I am not is the “Teacher” which is the only one that scored extra low.  All the rest were within 10 points of each other)

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The ‘P’s in my Shape

March 27, 2007

I just realized that I never finished writing my shape series, so to keep all of you who are following along interested, here are the ‘P’s in my shape.

For most “shape” profiles P has been expanded out as personality. For me I am an introverted guy, who is kinda geeky and a little nerdy. I don’t open up very fast to others and I am very loyal to the close friends who I do make.

However, the P in this sermon series did not stand for personality. It stands for partner, as in finding a ministry to partner with. In defining the areas of ministry, we loosely take the list from the one included in Ephesians 4:11–>apostles, prophets, evangelists, pastors, & teachers.

Here’s how the list gets broken down and applied to today’s church:

Prophets: Those through whom God speaks. They work in the “Worship” ministry facilitating the experiencing of God both corporately and individually. Some specific areas that are included in this are the music ministry, the audio/visual tech team.

Evangelists: Preachers of the gospel. These folk are invloved in the “Outreach” ministry area and love on people to bring them to Christ. Any area that seeks out people in order to bring them to Christ falls under this area, like community events designed to meet un-churched people, or church events designed to attract people from the community.

Pastors: Shepherds for the community. The task of a shepherd of that day were to watch for and defend against enemies trying to attack the sheep, to heal the wounded and sick sheep, to find and save lost sheep, and to love and share their lives with the sheep. The modern day equivalents are grouped together under “Member Care/Fellowship” ministries. Examples of these include ministries that help guests and regulars feel welcome while at church, and ministries that help the body feel and stay connected with each other.

Teachers: Those who teach others concerning the things of God and the duties of man. This area are those ministries that focus on growing the body. Examples include small group ministries, prayer ministries, and often times mens’ and womens’ ministries.

Apostles are a harder category to modernize, but in a nutshell these are the people who work to start ministries where there are needs and no ministry in place. An organized form of this ministry would be one that focuses on empowering others to live fulfilled lives withing their shape, and/or a ministry that helps connect others to the ministry of their calling.

Of the areas of ministry included above, I feel most called towards the “hard to define” apostle category. When looking at my administrator/server/giver spiritual gift, it makes sense (at least in my mind) that I would be very well suited to the apostle area. Currently, I am helping out or spearheading several different pretty unrelated areas in the Experience.

In my mind, the areas that I am spearheading, one of which is trying to get the sermons back online and available for download, are areas that I would ideally pass on to someone else once I get all the kinks worked out and a system in place. I know not everyone is up for the challenge of starting something, but if given the opportunity to keep an area going, some might view that as being more appealing.

What is your calling? What ministry do you lean towards?

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Breaking the Chain

March 24, 2007

One of the most interesting ideas that I have heard in a while I heard last night. It involves how we are tempted, or more specifically what Satan is “allowed” to tempt us with.

Take for example the Biblical story of Job. Satan enters and requests that God allow him to tempt Job, which God does grant on a limited basis each time.

Another is a seeming recurring temptation theme within families over several generations. Perhaps the sins of the father are carried on with the sons. For example, Abraham’s trip down to Egypt and his lying about Sarah being his wife. Not long afterward the same thing happens to Isaac, Abraham’s son, when he travels down to Egypt too. He lies the exact same lie.

Another example is the weakness that David had with women, is carried out and also quite evident when just looking at the number of females in his son Solomon’s life. These hundreds of females ended up being Solomon’s downfall.

So how does one break free from a generational sin.

Perhaps the first step is realizing that it is a sin, instead of rationalizing it in one way or another. Our minds, coupled with the cunning of the devil, can come up with numerous rationalizations to justify the continuation in the sin.

After acknowledging the sin, the next step is asking for forgiveness from both God, and anyone that you may have wronged with the sin. This forgiveness can help humble us and mend relationships that may have been strained because of the sin.

However this is where most of the resolving ends, which is both bad and sad, because the one thing that is left is the temptation to re-enter the sin. The devil is both patient and persistent, and he will bombard us with both rationalizations and the temptation until we end up falling back into it.

So is there a way we can break this chain of hereditary temptation?

I believe there is. I believe there is a third step, one that may have been forgotten, but more likely, one that the devil convinces us to put aside.

What I found interesting from this idea is that there are only two individuals who can grant Satan license to tempt us: God, and ourselves.

In the case of Job, Satan gets his permission from God to do the tempting.  Why did God allow it? Job asks the exact same question, but the response isn’t one he really likes.

So what about ourselves? Why would any of us even want to open the door to temptation?  Perhaps something has fed us a lie that we need something within the sin to make us complete, which couldn’t be further from the truth.  Perhaps it doesn’t come from us internally, but the doorway is someone else in our lives, someone who wants to push us into something.  It might even be generational, when the sins or weaknesses of the parents end up being the same struggles of the children.

The third step, and the one that will break the chain, is to acknowledge in spoken prayer (so the universe can hear as a witness) that you acknowledge and renounce the [sin/temptation/failure] in your life, that you ask God to break the stronghold that the sin cause or was a part of in your life, and that you ask Jesus “to take back the ground that was given to the enemy” through the [sin/temptation/failure] and that that you yield that ground to His (God’s) control.

This is a pretty simple prayer, but I am a testament to it working in my life.  It is this prayer (well a variant of it) that helped me break free from my bitterness.  It is also this prayer that helped me break free from another temptation that I have had for a while.

Since I don’t know the extent on how far this blog will be read, I am not going to elaborate on it.

It has been around 24 hours since I prayed the prayer about this sin, and from almost immediately afterwards until now, I have had no temptation in this area.  I also have no reason to believe this area will be a problem for me, because I have no intention of ever making it a problem for me again! If the temptation returns, then I will have some words directed at God about it, but I don’t expect that to happen.

I know this works because it has worked in my life.  If you are struggling with something, I encourage you to pray this prayer and to adapt it to your specific issue.  God wants to help you break the chain, and so do I!

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Starting from Scratch: An Update

March 20, 2007

During the past few weeks, the prepress department (my work) have started “upgrading” our system to a new, and supposedly ‘better,’ one.

What began with the supervisor and another worker being gone for a week of training up in Canada, has now blossomed into a brand new system, fully installed and almost completely set up and ready to use, and when I say “new,” I mean we are changing everything, well everything except for the most problematic device (one of the printers) which is another story/rant in itself, and a relatively new processor that doesn’t need changing since it was updated a year ago with this system in mind.

We are ditching the server, all the printers (minus the one I mentioned in the previous paragraph), and the plate-setter, which is basically everything I deal with on a day-to-day basis.

This has made work more stressful and more time-consuming than normal. It is also one reason for not as frequent blogs.

However, another thing is starting new too—me.

Last night I hit another hole in my heart, or to put it more specifically, I ripped another hole in my mostly healed from bitterness heart. While before it was bitterness inside, this time it is pride. While I had done the workbook exercises on the pride thing a few nights ago, they really didn’t do a whole lot for me. I believed I was honestly asking God to help me from the heart (vs the head), but nothing was really happening. Maybe a sliver of feeling here or there but nothing significant, like I was expecting in an area that I knew was an issue with me.

But last night I had an epiphany on where the root of my pride is located. I, more specifically the workbook, wasn’t worded correctly for my situation, and I needed to ask God specifically for help in a specific area only broadly touched upon in the workbook.

From what I can tell, my pride is rooted somewhere in my need to be recognized, which drives me to be better than everyone around me, which usually leads to either impatience with those around me, or that I subconsciously place myself above them, viewing them as inferior in whatever way I succeeded in. Then when I wouldn’t be recognized for my hard work, it flipped around into either resentment/bitterness for not being recognized, or me getting caught in the trap of self-pity that easily landslides down a very steep hill.

Do any of you know where I am coming from here?

Well knowing about my problem is half the battle, and to be perfectly honest with all of you, I really don’t think I can do the other half on my own. I am not even sure where to go from here. Obviously, I need God and all the help he can give. He is probably the only one who reach down there to the roots of this pride, and so while I am keeping my inner-ear open to him, tell me if He prompts any of you about something for me, either in person or here on this post.

So tonight (one night later), I am writing this, and declaring I am starting from scratch, but unlike work, where the buggiest piece of equipment is the only thing not being replaced, I am set on cleaning things up right the first time, and any help any of you can offer would be much appreciated.

Will it be as seamless as work is going? Probably not, and that isn’t saying much, because the transition at work has so far been anything but seamless.

Will I stumble? Probably, and I will probably outright fall too, but that isn’t the goal. The goal is becoming who God wants me to be, and I know it isn’t a bitter pride-filled person so I do know I am moving in the right direction.

So with all that said, thank you for reading this blog and thanks-in-advance for any advice, whether it is lending me a hand or an ear, or any other Spirit-prompts meant for me.

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Technical: The A in my Shape

March 6, 2007

So far I have learned that my Spiritual gift is an administrator-server-giver and that my Heart/passion is for efficiency. Now I come to the letter A, which is short for Abilities. From the way I see my abilities, most all of them can be grouped under the broad category of “Technical.”

While growing up, I was able to very quickly grasp technical ideas and understand how they fit together. Things such as computers (both hardware & software), sound systems, audio/visual equipment, and most other things I was, and still am, able to learn with minimal difficulty.

When I mix my efficiency passion with my technical abilities, I usually am very quick to discover better ways of doing things, and if I tack on my secondary gift of server, it takes virtually any task I do and will either shorten the time, increase the quality, or do some combination of both. This is often shown at work when I can usually be found multi-tasking up to six projects at once.

When my H and A letters mix with my administrator primary gift, things don’t always go as well. I don’t know why this is. Maybe it is a self-fulfilling negative mindset towards administrating or leading. Maybe it is the public and extroverted nature usually associated with administrators clashing with my actual extremely introverted and shy self. It may even be something as small as never being taught or shown how to lead, if that is a “learnable” skill, or something in the back of my head making me think that if I do lead then either people won’t follow, or that people won’t like me because of it.

One of the biggest ways to piss me off is to agree to go out and do something, or agree to meet me somewhere and then bail out without calling to tell me beforehand, or at the very least before I have waited too long for you.

At any rate, my abilities tend to lean towards most anything that doesn’t involve people or leading. I pick up on things pretty quick and work well behind the scenes. I remember on one occasion, being dropped, at the last minute, into a position where I was coordinating tech stuff for a drama that was moved indoors and needed the stuff run. This situation was very ironic and unique because it landed me in charge and all the people who would normally be my bosses followed my point.  Afterwards, the guy who would have normally been my boss came to me and told me that I did a good job coordinating.

This situation may be a glimpse of where I am called to, but right now it seems far out of my element.  Time will tell.